Love life

I'm not wearing any underwear, which has nothing to do with my love life, but I do think that it's important emough to post up here.

So... there are two girls. Pretty much one, though. There were two girls, but one of them has this all-business approach to Christianity. I love Jesus too, but do we always have to talk about him? Some would call that heresy, but I would call it acknowledging the rest of his creation. I think that we should see Jesus in that creation, but I don't sometimes a puppy is cute enough without having to acknowledge comparing the puppy's unconditional love to Jesus'(we never really talked about that, but this is a pretty fair example). I don't always want to talk about some of the spiritual things we've seen (she's seen stuff too) because that stuff is really heavy, and intense. It kinda weighs you down sometimes. I went out to eat with that girl the other day just to kinda figure her out some more, and, unless she super-duper changes, I feel like she's not really my type. It's kinda crazy to acutally have the freedom to say that. All of you guys know how bound I become to each one of my crushes, so to actually have the strength and freedom to evaluate the situation and know that this girl really isn't someone that I would want to spend an abundance of time with is liberating and speaks for how far God has brought me as a person. She's an amazing woman of God; I have never been called out on so many of my ignored, unknown spiritual issues the way that she did. But I guess, I didn't feel any kind of chemistry there.

Then the other one. Well, she's actually the same one that I had posted about all last year. Yep, it's her. I have a BLAST with that girl. We communicate the way I imagine a great couple ought to. I've totally brought up to her more than once how I feel and she is able to be cool with it. She's single now, and a couple weeks ago, I told her that I was on the market and asked if she was. She said no. But I don't feel like it's a "No, not with you," I feel like it's a "No, not right now." I don't plan on letting that girl out of my sights.
I saw her last night at a church thing. I didn't even know she was there, but she came up to me and kicked me in the shin and we picked up right where we left off. We never skip a beat, I feel like we always are in tune. As I was looking down at her smiling and listening to her talk, I just kept thinking, "Man, I could do this. I want to do this." So who knows? I'm going to see her again on Wed, but not like at a church thing, or a school thing; it's a dinner thing.
I don't know what any of this means. I know what I want it to mean, but I also know that this girl has kinda burned me before (it's pretty justified to say that I jumped the gun, though), so I'm being a little cautious. I'm sick of being her casual friend. I would like to be more deliberate about seeing her. But right now, I just don't want to force anything. I learned my lesson. I going to be patient this time around.

That's the update. It felt good to type, so I'm glad you asked. Cool. I erased some other analytical stuff because I just don't want to be that guy anymore. I'm tired of trying to think about everything. So, I'm going to stop and read some comic books that I borrowed from Matt.

Rock-n-roll, fellas.